The Child I Never Was

What Becomes a Serial Killer Most?

A serial killer dispassionately discusses the nuts and bolts of his grisly avocation, as well as the youthful traumas which helped to mold him into a psychopath, in this disturbing independent drama from Germany, based on the true story of of Germany's most famous child murderer Juergen Bartsch who, between the ages of 15 and 19, abused, tortured and killed four schoolboys in the Ruhr region of Germany from 1962 to 1966.

2002

1h 21min

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Top Billed Cast

Tobias Schenke
Jürgen Bartsch, Older
Ulrike Bliefert
Gertrud Bartsch
Walter Gontermann
Gerhard Bartsch
Jürgen Christoph Kamcke
Father Seidlitz
Sebastian Rüger
Young Deacon
Stephan Szasz
Young Priest
Roland Riebeling
Chaplain Herles
Sebastian Urzendowsky
Jürgen Bartsch, Younger

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